Hello everyone once again C:
i'm thisnewgirl, and i do pixelart animations, C: i make my living as a freelancer and i'm always working on projects with my clients, when i'm not on hive, i'm working on some secret and some not so secret projects, this month, my favorite of the whole year and when i actually celebrate my birthday, has been quite disturbing, i went from being busy with my mother being sick to being busy with the sick mother of a loved one, and under no circumstances would i expect that in this same month his mother would die from metastasis of a breast cancer she supposedly had beaten...
There were many examinations, chemotherapy, various treatments, and with my own eyes I saw how life was quickly extinguished in another human being.... I think it is the first close experience with death that I have had... and I think it was quite traumatic.
First of all because it has made me question several things, such as who I am, what I do and where I am going...
I saw the pain of a family losing a mother who could still live more...
I am so impressed... one day she was there and the next day she wasn't, and you can feel the absence, the house feels... silent and the joy is really missing... or so I feel, well it's obvious that there will be silence for a while I guess...
I ask a lot of questions when something happens, and I ask a lot ... especially to understand everything ... I do not like to stay with a “she died” and that's it ... because when the day my mother has to leave this physical world, I want to ... at least understand what is happening and not panic.
That's been my month... I guess according to the holiday (?)
This year has taken away many great people...
please appreciate who you have by your side supporting you every day. without more to say let's go with the process of today's post As always I bring something thematic of the season <3 thanks for reading and if you like my content support with a like !
sketch in black and white | adding base colors | base colors for all |
as you already know I start with a black and white sketch, I always make sketches, other times I just work and clean lines.
all base colors and shadows
candle light and glow